Just Friends

"Everyone knows it's meant to be,
Fallin in love just you and me
'Til the end of time
'Til the bottom line
I've been makin lots of plans
Like a picket fence and rose garden
But I'll keep on dreamin
But it's cool
Cause we're just
Friends."

I doubt I'll ever really get over him, but for now I am content to be his friend...lol, and adviser on all things girl related. Weird, but cool that he talks to me about that stuff. We're so much more honest with each other now. I like it...but at the same time, I wonder if he'll ever feel for me the way I do for him...

Who knows?

Green Mint Chip Moosetracks Ice Cream...

Is a gift from the gods. Mmmmmmmmm. My two favorite ice creams combined in the most fabulous hybrid EVER!!

Anyway, school is crazy. I'm under so many deadlines. I want to write for the local newspaper, but they want an article TOMORROW. I said sorry, no can do. But the guy was like, sure you can write 400 words in one night! Agh. Noooooooo.

Theatre is going swimmingly. We are doing Speak Truth to Power and everyone should come see it. Ask me for dates. I don't know them yet. End of October ish. I couldn't be Elie Weisel because I lack male organs. Ah well. Apparently being Jewish isn't good enough. Harumph.

And we have a fam reunion tomorrow so I'm missing the last two hours of school which will make for even more work when I get back. Bugger. But on the plus side, I'm only missing my easy classes. AP. Dear god, what THE HELL was I thinking?! Strike me with lightning next time I do something that stupid. What a rat race. Such is the way of life.

Such is the way of life...

New year...

What will this school year hold for me?

The definites:
~ Hard work
~ Pressure to do well
~ Re-connections with old friends
~ Theatre (Yay)
~ Increasing sense that college gets closer everytime I blink (nervous)

The hopefuls:
~ Driving?
~ Romance?
~ New friends?

I think I've just started not dreading going back to school. My hopes are high that this year will be even better than last year. And last year wasn't terrible. I'm going to be 17 in a few weeks. Mom's granted me more freedom than I know what to do with. It's nice that she trusts me. It's just weird being able to do so much independently,ya know? It will take getting used to...

Good

Its so good to reconcile with friends. It almost makes fighting worth it. Almost. Not really. I'm just glad he apologized. I really didn't expect him to. So it was a great suprise. Now I'm listening to one of his songs and we're bouncing e-mails back and forth just like we used to.

Life is good. :)

And thanks for the friendly concern after the last post. I was just bummed out. No worries. But I totally think that ice cream and R&J should happen at some point!

You

Are still, despite all the shit yoou've put me through, still keeping me awake at night. Apparently lying to me isn't enough to make me detest you. What is?! Damn hearts...I want so desperately to hate you. But then I think of how you held me when I cried. How you rejected me, but made sure I was okay before you left. You didn't just run off like everyone else. That makes me rethink being mad at you and before you know it, it's 12:33 a.m. and I'm awake thinking of you. I don't know what to do...for a change...maybe you'll e-mail me. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Lung Yucious

Haha, that sounds like a disease of the lungs. it is actually one actor's butchering of my character (Young Lucious)'s name.

I am at YCTC and was just two days ago cast in Titus Andronicus. Very gory. Mmm. Haha. It's going to be fun. our director is taking a very symbolic approach to the blood. Oooh. Exciting :)

Hmm...that's about all the news that's fit to print. For more details, e-mail me. This year is not as great as last year thus far. But then...ah well.

Independence Day

"Ho Chi Minh was a great leader because he defeated the United States, the greatest country on Earth."

So said one of my Korean classmates at Saigon South.

I don't know anymore if the U.S.A is the greatest country. I have grown up with a basic pride of country and a belief that democracy and independence are the only effective ways to run a government. Now having spent tone abroad in a communist country, the ideas I once held as gospel truth are shaken. "Commies" aren't evil. They are just like you or me. They have hopes, dreams, fears, love...everything we have. What makes us so special?

Just because we are a super power now does not mean we will always be one. In looking at the hysteria over the upcoming election, I am beginning to think that our country has peaked and is now starting to decline. What happens when the US is no longer a power? Will we decline so far that we have to start over completely?

I don't know...

Those are my philosophical thoughts for today...

Not Quite the Last...

Haha, I lied that wasn't my last post. But, unless I get around to it later today this will be. I have 1,000 dong left (one sixteenth of a dollar) and I don't plan on spending it in an internet cafe. So I am at Amanda's.

I have to say, I am really going to miss her. We called her boyfriend in the States last night. He was quite funny, but it was the whispered conversations she and I had with the reciever covered that were the best. She is so much like me. We always have a great time together. Amanda dahilng, you are incredible. What else can I say? Except that bacon SPATTRs hahaha. Inside joke. Not really, but I don't feel like explaining now. Ask me later.

We went to the Benh Tan (or Than?) night market last night. That is another thing I will miss. Everyone pressing in on you ("You buy from me? very cheap price! Maximum quality! Good price for you madam!) and the insanity of bargaining. I got a shirt last night for 70,000 dong. Know what the asking price was? 320,000! The saleslady kept asking me to go higher, one more time, one more time! She didn't seem to get that I had only 70,000 in my wallet! I kept trying to get away but her partner in crime had the exit blocked! Then she grabbed my arm and wouldn't let me go. As if I was the one who really wanted that sale! Hmph. Finally, I pulled away and was just about to leave when she said "Okay, okay. You buy, you buy. 70,000." I walked away laughing. I was so ready to give up. If I had had more money, I would have caved earlier. I was ready to leave when she first quoted the price! HAhaha, oh Viet Nam...

Then we almost got run over by a series of mopeds, offered rides by two million xiclos, three million taxis, and four million xe oms. The true Vietnamese experience was complete.

So my...third to last day in Viet Nam was fabulous. Oh! And for those of you who didn't know about my lost chuck (high top tennis shoes that are FABULOUS), this will not be so exciting for you. But it was a huge deal to me! One of my beloved chucks (and you all know I don't get attached to shoes!) was lost in our most recent move. I was so upset! I truly had no expectations of finding it before I left. I told everyone to keep their eyes open during the packing process, bu tI thought it just wasn't meant to be. Well, I will close with this; PETE FOUND IT!!!!!! Yay!!!!!

Love to you all, and thanks again for reading!