New year...

What will this school year hold for me?

The definites:
~ Hard work
~ Pressure to do well
~ Re-connections with old friends
~ Theatre (Yay)
~ Increasing sense that college gets closer everytime I blink (nervous)

The hopefuls:
~ Driving?
~ Romance?
~ New friends?

I think I've just started not dreading going back to school. My hopes are high that this year will be even better than last year. And last year wasn't terrible. I'm going to be 17 in a few weeks. Mom's granted me more freedom than I know what to do with. It's nice that she trusts me. It's just weird being able to do so much independently,ya know? It will take getting used to...

Good

Its so good to reconcile with friends. It almost makes fighting worth it. Almost. Not really. I'm just glad he apologized. I really didn't expect him to. So it was a great suprise. Now I'm listening to one of his songs and we're bouncing e-mails back and forth just like we used to.

Life is good. :)

And thanks for the friendly concern after the last post. I was just bummed out. No worries. But I totally think that ice cream and R&J should happen at some point!

You

Are still, despite all the shit yoou've put me through, still keeping me awake at night. Apparently lying to me isn't enough to make me detest you. What is?! Damn hearts...I want so desperately to hate you. But then I think of how you held me when I cried. How you rejected me, but made sure I was okay before you left. You didn't just run off like everyone else. That makes me rethink being mad at you and before you know it, it's 12:33 a.m. and I'm awake thinking of you. I don't know what to do...for a change...maybe you'll e-mail me. We'll see what tomorrow brings.